26/10/06

// feeling :: tired. zzz.
// prayer for :: my mom's illness

My phone's charging on its own again.

Tried installing Disc2Phone and PC Suite again into my com and its all working fine, so I guess the problem is in the phone. Pissed -.-

Today, I took the bus to Belle's school but ended up taking it from the wrong side and getting off about 20 stops too early. By the time I got there, we were alr late for the meeting with Mehei and Alex. Oops my bad.

We met them at Harbourfront MRT and walked over to Vivo. Had dinner at Long John's. Heh they treated. Well, we got to see the gentleman culture of other countries. You see Singapore -.- guys dont treat girls, they even borrow money from them. Some dun even return. I'm talking about the likes of Matthew Wang Twee Liang.

Argh. Why am I even thinking about him. Bleah.

Yeah so erm. We sat at Long John's for a long time. Belle listened to songs with Alex and Mehei told me about his experiences and let me listen to songs from his walkman phone.

They're...I duno how to describe them. They know Belle and I like sad songs occasionally, and they let us listen to those kind of songs. But after awhile, they say thats enough for now. They say that listening to too many sad songs will affect our moods eventually.

I duno whether you know what I'm driving at...Belle knows because she's the one that made me realise all this.

Ah heh. Lol. After that we walked ard. It was time for Mehei and Alex to leave so we brought them to the station. I duno wad happened to Alex. He ran off, saying he needed to go to the toilet.

Met Gab and Dehua at Vivo -.-

After that Belle and I continued shopping ard ourselves. We spent a looooooooooong time at Candy Empire, deciding what to buy. I wanna try the lime and black pepper chips!! It looks nice =P

Then go Watson's..Vivo Mart..I spent quite a lot..Lol. My allowance gone alr.

I bought this thing..Wanted to give it to someone.. But when I got home and took it out of the bag Gab started her whole string of comments.

It made me think.

Last time, someone commented that one thing good about me was that I dont bear grudges. That I forgive, forget and move on. But, do I? Others yeah, maybe. But...I've always felt this negative vibe coming from my sister. I find it hard to forgive her and forget her acts.

Last time my ex-classmates said this to me: "Its all your fault that she's so spoilt now. Its because you keep giving to her does she feel as though its right."

After that, I totally separated myself mentally from my sister. Darent go near her, darent do anything that might harm her in the future. But this isnt the way...The further away I go from her, the less I feel she's my sister. The longer I stay away from her, the less I know her.

I mean, of cos la, would you expect someone to be closer to you if you guard yourself against that person -.-

Now, as I try to get closer to her again, there's something that just repels us from each other. Things like this I bitterly regret.

But anyway. I really had a fantastic time with the 3 of them today. Hope to do that again sometime :)